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Here I am in lovely Plattsburgh New York.  It's a quaint little town nestled next to lake Champlain and surrounded by the summer homes of people who only arrive in the summer when the capitalists let them out to play.  I'm feeling placeless here.  The town is a post Airforce base town so the locals are the very bottom of the barrel that stuck to it after any good reason to stay had left.  I've weasled my way into the only two art events this town has seen in a year and every interesting person told me to go somewhere else.

Ah well, at least there are lots of sad things to take pictures of here.  I'm going to use some of the money I've been given to buy a decent film camera and I think I'll spend my spare time going around taking pictures.  *crosses fingers* you know me, I get sidetracked all too easily.

Man, I promised to scan some photos ages ago didn't I?  Where does the time go...

I still haven't finished a b&w film that I've been thinking about finishing for months now.  Gah I hate winter with a fiery passion.  Ah well, at least the digicam is lots of fun and I have conned mum into letting me borrow her nikon f4 to play with.

Well exams will be done in about a week.  I got back one of my montreal films and there are some damn good shots on there ^_^ I was pleasently surprised by a few of them.

So, I think I'll scan them and see if I cant insert some poetry into one or two and make a sort of requiem for the summer's joy.

When life gets you down, make art out of it.

Exams are ze brutal, I'm going out of my mind.  Bloody exams... well at least I'm still spending time with good friends.  

I need more time to relax and think, this is very true.  I also need to find something or someone new to focus on...  Music?  Art?  Sleeping?  All good options I think.

So, art has been promised.  Tah.

*sigh* no time to ps my photos and my B&W film is taking forever to shoot because I'm not at all used to looking for textures.  I promise, once the school year throttles back from super overdrive I'll try to put something up.

Like we used to say in Judo, if you taste blood you're working hard enough.

Another day passes, I did spectacularly on another test.  I tend to do that...  I got one film back, none of the shots are impressive enough that I would feel right putting them on here... perhaps I'll put a few in my scraps folder.  The other film should have some more arty shots on it.

I'm about to eat my last chocolate from a huge box of chocolates... it's a bittersweet thing to eat the last chocolate.  MMmmmm perhaps more sweet than bitter... coffee cream (the way it was meant to be) oh that was a lovely way to end the box.

I'm listening to a David Usher song that has been the theme song of my life for a long time.  Such a tale of failure.  Funny, the things I care about always slip away.